Finding Momentum

i think today was just a great day to sorta just relax and avoid respon­si­bil­ity =D it was cool being able to see all the col­lege ppl com­ing back (and angela all the way from vir­ginia) at church. speaker was josh lee from sum­mer retreat and i think his mes­sage was really applic­a­ble to me. man.. wor­ship team was really big today. jeremy’s first time with us doing gui­tar.. joe on elec­tric, david on vio­lin along with .. every­body else =D

one thing i’ve real­ized this week is the extent to which my rela­tion­ship with God has dete­ri­o­rated.. i’ve felt so.. empty recently.. like i’ve lost my pur­pose in life. like i was wan­der­ing the lyn­brook halls with­out know­ing what i was doing and where i was going. but i really wanna change that over break, espe­cially with all this new­found free time. i just wanna recon­nect.. and some­how get in touch with God again.

after church we all went over to bill of fare restau­rant (aka “the restau­rant”) and ate some good greasy-fattening food. went over to ed’s to meet up with vinny jack john and gary for some bball at coun­try lane, where the hoops are all about.. oh.. two feet high =D

oh man i felt like vince carter or some­thing.. noth­ing like a good dunk to boost your self con­fi­dence a lil hahaha =D even­tu­ally we saw these 8th grade guys and decided to play em. we won but whew.. those lil kids have skills (not to men­tion dirty mouths lol) haha fun…

was sit­ting in the restau­rant lis­ten­ing to the christ­mas music and got nos­ta­logic all of a sud­den.. christ­mas used to mean so much to me back in the day.. what hap­pened? why am i not in the christ­mas mood? christ­mas used to mean the class par­ties back in ele­men­tary school home­room. christ­mas used to mean presents under the tree that you could already guess. it meant ooing and aaahing while lis­ten­ing to christ­mas music in a dark room watch­ing the lights on the christ­mas tree blink. so what happened?

aye.. sorry if i’m sound­ing like the grinch here. once you’ve lost the magic, it’s hard to get it back…

but i must end this entry on a happy note. hope you guys are all enjoy­ing your break.. thanks every­body for the presents and the “merry christmas“es.. you’re all awe­some and i gotta get to sleep now cuz i’m dead tired.