Wednesday, February 18th, 2004...9:36 pm

(chicken) soup

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break’s been pretty good, i’ve been spend­ing mucho qual­ity time with my com­put­ers. such is the life of a nerd.

for­give me for bor­ing you, but here’s the low­down: 1 fried mobo, 1 fried CPU, 1 new case, 1 refor­mat­ted drive on linux, 1 erased linux drive, about 20 gut­ted com­puter parts lying on the floor, 1 shat­tered dream, 2 sleep­less nights, 2 ruined floppy dri­ves, and uh, aw heck you get the pic­ture. the plus side is that we may have the most wired fam­ily room in the neigh­bor­hood, not that that’s a brag­ging point.

two years ago i went crazy about blog­ging.. i updated every day sim­ply cuz i felt that i needed to log down my life to get it in order. i guess now i’m real­iz­ing even more now that i don’t need to write it down to get it right. what­ever that means.

i’ve been spend­ing some more time get­ting reaquainted with the piano. it’s a care­ful courtship (yeah yeah only i could bring roman­tic con­no­ta­tions into this) but this time i think i’m enjoy­ing it more.. prob­a­bly because i play what i want, when i want, because i want to. i guess that’s always how it was sup­posed to be.

we spend the first 15 years of our lives fight­ing against the things our par­ents make us do, then take the next 15 real­iz­ing how good for us it was. again, i’m not mak­ing sense, but think of piano lessons, vio­lin, chi­nese school, aba­cus (solomon brought that up today, good point), kumon math for those of you who took it, ten­nis lessons or bas­ket­ball leagues or what­ever.. our par­ents gave us the head start on those things, and i’m only start­ing to feel grate­ful for those things.

okay, mov­ing on to track — here we go again. painful, yet this time i’m deter­mined to do it right. i’m gonna eat right, work out right, run right and work hard, and i’m gonna break my stu­pid bar­rier in the half and one mile. watch­ing some of the younger guys (who’ve been train­ing in the win­ter months) burn past me kinda makes me wish i’d been work­ing even harder. too late now, gotta make the best of it.

i’m work­ing hard, aca­d­e­m­i­cally speak­ing (i’d like to think that). my ques­tion is, should i be stop­ping? does the fact that i’m a sec­ond semes­ter senior (that term’s been overused and abused) mean i can give up cuz every­body else is? part of me wants to work hard so i can end up with a flaw­less aca­d­e­mic record, straight teeth and a brag­ging right (which is one messed up moti­va­tion). the other side of me rea­sons that if i want to suc­ceed in life, i need to learn to work hard. and if i don’t learn now, i’ll never learn it.

okay enough psy­cho­an­a­lytic bab­ble, kite ogre zebra hurk funk bye

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I USED TO LISTEN TO N’SYNC. SO SUE ME!!!!!

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  • Stephanie

    Hey Andrew! Haven’t vis­ited in a while…and yeah, I totally agree with what you’re talk­ing about when you say how you’re grate­ful for what your par­ents made you do…it really does give you that head start and shows how much your par­ents care about your future. I remem­ber I HATED piano lessons and all that other stuff, but when I look back on it, I’m actu­ally really glad and thank­ful that my par­ents made me stick with it because…it makes me feel accom­plished :)

  • steph (again)

    Hey! Yeah I totally know what you mean when you say you play piano “for fun”…It was always kind of hard for me to admit to peo­ple I played “for fun” after I stopped tak­ing lessons because it made me look all nerdy and stuff…but yeah, doesn’t it feel great being able to play what you want and being able to express your­self? Plus when you’re mad or what­ever you can just take it out on the piano keys… ;)