Finding Momentum

Catalina was so dif­fer­ent but exactly what I needed. Good con­ver­sa­tions, lots of con­fir­ma­tions, prayer and raw­ness with soph broth­ers, real encoun­ters with God, a lot of rest and relax­ation, new rela­tion­ships, all that good stuff. And mainly I am struck by how much com­mu­nity enriches and sup­ports the body, where we find the “full­ness of Christ” despite the times we find it full of hypocrisy and dou­bletalk. And I am so encour­aged by what I see.

I will admit: I’m scared. I’m likely lead­ing the prayer team next year at a time when I feel like I know the least about it, or I am not gifted with so-and-so’s gifts. And I’d like to tell myself that’s why I’m going ahead and doing it. But in so many ways that’s why we’re all scared whereever we’re placed next year, and we’re gonna plunge ahead say­ing that God, you’ve gotta catch us when we take this leaaaaap…

One thing that’s cru­cial is los­ing this per­fec­tion­is­tic atti­tude of mine; this idea that being busy 24/7 is nor­mal and healthy and per­fectly doable. Leav­ing behind the idol of pro­duc­tiv­ity and fill­ing it with bet­ter things; things of inti­macy with God and rela­tion­ships and rest.

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Con­ver­sa­tions Found
Sat around at the din­ing table with Mom and Dad tonight and just chat­ted. I love my par­ents. They are amaz­ing role mod­els and exam­ples to me.

Con­ver­sa­tions Lost
So in the process of refor­mat­ting my hard drive I lost my 4-year old archive of every sin­gle AIM con­ver­sa­tion I ever had. Yes folks, that’s a lot of social invest­ment for­ever lost. Late night chats, guy talk, home­work assign­ments, con­vos with crushes, and all around good times. The pack rat in me wants to cry. But some­thing tells me this is some­thing for the bet­ter. Quit look­ing behind you and start mov­ing forward.

Self-awareness is so impor­tant but I must admit it’s too hip and new school of a con­cept for me to admit I need more of it..

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