Man, God is totally wrecking me with this Betty thing. It’s been hard not to be cold to Betty after our repeated confrontations with her. To not let bitterness take root every time I feel like I see her act out of (what I believe to be) entitlement. And well, if I had to call it […]
This Tuesday was my last day at Riverbed. I’ve moved onto a yearlong ministry internship at Regeneration, and moved in across the street from the church in Oakland. I’m starting to see how this is shaping up to be an urban monastic existence, as Justin put it. It’s funny, because I used to think that […]
Be still, Andrew. Pay attention to your soul. Dare to own your pain. Trust in your Father.
I have discovered you cannot properly grieve in a city; it won’t give you a damn second to be alone. I’d like to have a moment of silence in an alleyway, behind the dumpster, over the beggar-man, to the cacophony of car horns and ice cream carousel jingles. No dice. The city clamors, roars, and […]
All my life I’ve lived in the electronic! always-on! hyper-connected! world of the Future. I realize that it promises intimacy but cannot deliver. Get me away from these late night bright lights and cold screens. I wanna float about and explore inner space. Linger in the warmth of friends and simple conversations. Stretch out in […]
Grace, grace, it all comes from Grace. Today I heard that I deserve nothing; everything given to me is a gift. I think it was the millionth time I’d heard it, but the first time I actually thought about living it. I think the Gospel is crazy because it talks about a Jesus who suffered rejection. […]
I am now distraught with sweet, sweet grief in accepting what I do not understand. “Child of weakness watch and pray, find in Me thine all in all.”
The mission next year is to live in faith, seek spiritual renewal, and develop personal boundaries. In that order, until things change again.
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. Sarah had always made light of the fact that I’m like a robot. After all, I work in code all day at my job. And I’m stable, familiar, and predictable. And I could always be counted on to “do the right […]
